Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I am feeling a lot more indifferent about Adam emailing me. I never want to have the kind of friendship we used to have, so that makes it easier to swallow his contacting me. Whatever. I am at a really really good spot in life right now, why let the memory of him cloud my happy vision.
 
On to other things.. today I had another awesome workout! I really look forward to seeing Andrew. I have decideded that even though I pay him, he is really my only friend here that I see, much less talk to on a regular basis. All the encouragement he gives me goes a long way! He is pointing out how good I am doing..how much I have improved over the weeks! It is really evidant on the assisted pull ups! I have to say I am proud of how I am doing with those..and everything! I talked to him about the food/eating issue. He understands and reminded me to write down what I eat. I am going to try a notepad, and not the app I had been using-although I loved it and lost 30 lbs last fall/winter/spring with it, it just doesn't interest me like it used to. I avoid taking the time to do it..so maybe a journal -handwritten will work for a while! He said when people track their food, they eat about 30% less. Its worth a new try!!
 
I am happy to report that Winston and Gwen are getting along fabulously! She adores him, and he tolerates her..so that works better than I thought it would! She cannot be declawed for like another 2 months, so I have blankets over the furniture and she is free to roam around. I have to say I am impressed at how well she is adjusting!
 


Sunday, September 9, 2012

I have been doing really good about going to the gym more days than not! I am pretty proud about that! BUT...I have been eating like a pig! I am always hungry! I seem to have no self control either! Luckily its mostly just stuff I have in my cupboards/fridge/freezer..no fast food so thats a plus, right?
 
I really really need some motivation right now for eating well! I keep thinking I lost 30 lbs last time by JUST eating well. It's easy enough, but I just am like blah, whatever.
On another note, I got back from home this evening and checked my gmail..and low and behold I got an email from Adam. WTF? I have shown really really good self restraint and pretty much have had no contact with him since I left Buffalo in January/February. And, he, the one who doesn't have as strong feelings for me has text me at 2am and now emailed me because something reminded him of me. I can't say I am completely pissed. I am secretly smiling on the inside..no one is seeming to measure up to what I had with him. Ugh.. It sucks.
 
In happy news, I brought home a kitten today! Same coloring as Winston and she is moewing away..I know she misses her momma, but she is gonna love it here, I just know it.
 
Her name is Guinevere.
 
 
I have a thing for historical names. In classical literature Guinevere is King Arthur's queen, and her affair with Sir Lancelot brings about the fall of the kingdom. But I heard the name in an Eli Young Song and looked her up. I like. I will call her Gwen.
(here is the song)
 
Well, I will keep you updated on the eating business and of course the workouts!