Well, I know its been uber long since I have blogged..I kinda got out of it. I guess I got wrapped up in life. I have been trying to not say no to any oppertunity. I have had some awesome times this summer and fall!

After a few failed relationships in that period of time I am kinda toning things down again this winter. Each boy that was a part of the past 6 months made me grow a lot. But, I am really wanting to just meet a nice boy. With that being said, I need to be attracted to him too. My friend Aundrea has introduced me to a few nice boys, but I feel nothing for them. They were shorter than I am and for some reason thats a HUGE no no for me. I also thought I would never be involved with someone that has kids. One boy opened my eyes to thats not such a bad thing. I actually enjoyed it. It turns out he wasn't ready for a serious relationship yet, so that ship sailed and is over.

Boys are one thing, but lately I have felt like I am also lacking in the friend department. My best friends are in relationships and are not into hanging out with little ol' me much anymore. A lot of the people I used to spend time with have moved away. That is kinda of sad, but in a way there are a lot of people that were not the best friends for me, I just hung out with them because they were here. I do think that my friends right now are quality friends, but they have their own lives and it is hard to be the single one sometimes.

I have been really happy for the past couple months, and it could have been the boys made me feel attractive, and wanted, and important, and special. But the past couple days I have been kind of a Debbie Downer again. I dont like being like this, but I am tired of life not being lived to the fullest I guess. I know there is something more..and I want it!!! Now!! haha

Ok, well I suppose thats enough for one night. I will be back one of these days..