Current pt

Today went pretty good with DK the last 2 times actually I have been able to complete the workout without his assistance. Don't get me wrong..they have been hard as hell and I didn't want to be doing them. I was literally dripping sweat. So gross. I had a good weight loss this week. I feel that maybe I might be off that plateau I have been stuck on for the past year-ish. Tracking my food is helping. I am trying..but not depriving myself of social out to eat things. It's been good. Hopefully things will continue to go swell. I kind of have to accept the fact that DK isn't Andrew. There isn't that true interest in my life. He couldn't even remember that 3 weeks ago I told him I am going to Vegas. He asked me the same questions. Andrew was good at seeming to take a true interest in me. But....he crossed a line about a month ago and I cannot even look at his face anymore. I totally handled it wrong. If I had pretended nothing happened thinks would be better..but alas I'm super awkward and don't know how to fix it.
Will keep u posted!
Xoxo, me

This week went much better with DK. I haven't talked to him yet about how the workouts make me feel. The workout was a killer, but I pushed through. Last weeks made my right knee hurt but this week it isn't as bad. Lets just hope next week goes ok. I had to really watch my calories so I didn't get yelled at for not losing a pound. After drinking and out to eat all weekend with Jess. Hopefully I can watch this week as well. Tomorrow is the Super Bowl and I want to be able to order pizza!

Wow changes...

So lots has happened. Since Andrew is the main trainer he expects to be super busy with the new year soooooo I now go to one of his other guys DK. I don't know what to think. He pushes me super hard and I do new exercises but I'm losing motivation because everyday I work with him I feel like a let down..like a wimp. I defiantly could use a GOOD workout to increase my confidence. He also weighs me every week...I'm doing ok but twice now I haven't lost at least my goal of one pound a week. He makes me feel like shit when that happened. We really haven't built much of rapor. At all.
THEN while all this is happening my good ol Andrew started texting me. And things are super weird there too. He kinda crossed a line and then never followed through on things. It's messed up.
I don't know what's happening or what to do. Ugh.
With me luck cuz I don't even want to go to the gym ever these days.