After having a handful of routine workouts to do each time I go to the gym to work a certain part of my body, it makes the time there waaay more efficient. I love going in the middle of the night and being the only person there. I don't feel embarrassed to do some of the workouts that I am sure I look silly doing. BUT, having to go before work is convienent on those nights. The only complaint is that there happens to be a meeting of the meatheads. Not really..but thats what it seems like!

On a normal night, I do a few minutes of a warmup on the eliptical or treadmill and then do a weight/workout circuit then finish up with treadmill or eliptical again.

Well...on the ngihts (which is most) that I have to go before work, a handfull of dudes are using the weight machines and

a) I am self concious

b) they kind of hoard the machines to themselves

c) most are the sterotypical douchbags

 

That really makes me wanna workout next to them. RIIIIIIGHT! So, I barely like using the weights and machines next to them. Much less doing lunges and planks. Yeah right. Not happening.

I feel bad that I let my thoughts of them limit my workout, but thats just who I am. Last night I went to the bathroom and did lunges. Ha. And I never did do the planks. oops.

I need to consider going in the morning when I get off work. I don't know why, but on days that I do not work out with Andrew, I don't want to be there when he is there. I don't want any crituque on days I am not paying him. Haha..I'm weird, I know. So he gets there at like 9:30 or something, so I could go in the morning right after work. But..the morning trainer is there working with people, but I guess it would be the retired crowd. I have to think about my options, I just need to get over my self conciousness and frickin do what I need to do.

Ugh. I wish I could get on evenings and then just go everynight after work. It was sooo nice this weekend picking up evening shift and going after.

 

I workout with Andrew tomorrow morning. Wish me luck. 

So I went out for a few beers with my brother in law, and still go 8.5 hours of sleep. I woke up this morning and headed to the gym. **Praying Andrew wouldn't make me do ball squats AHHHH. I walk in do my warm up, and he says, "We need to do legs today!" Finally I had to tell him about my miserable days..hell, not days but week after ball squats and I will not do that again. He was super supportive and we did some other things.

Exercises today:

Leg extensions

Leg curls

Lunges

Ab Coaster

BB dead lift

Planks

Calf Raise

I hate hate hate planks. Pretty much i rest my elbows on a bench and just plank kinda in a push up position. IT SUCKS. But, it just sucks for that 30 seconds! It doesn't last for a week thank God!

I didn't breakfast this morning before my workout, and Andrew called me out on it. I lied of course! I don't want to disappoint him!!!! I just said I was hungover. He bought it and was really kinda sweet, making me drink water, gave me an apple, kinda let me do quite a few sitting things. Haha!

The BB dead lift is another one I am not very fond of. I hold the bar (45lbs) with no weights on and squat and up. I kept feeling like I was going to get down and not get back up or fall over. Andrew reassured me I wouldn't fall, and I could get back up..I just needed to get out of my head. I find that if I focus on breathing correctly I stop thinking about how the workout sucks/hurts/dripping sweaty. That works with him there to count, but when I am at the gym alone, I cannot multi-task THAT well!

I have to fit in 6 workouts in before I see him next Thursday...I wanted to say I committed to 3 days a week, not this many. But, like I said, I don't want to disappoint him! (or myself I guess. I am paying a shit ton on money for this, so I better milk it for all it's worth!)

Wish me luck on doing this!

Ugh, I am tired just thinking about it!

So Wednesday was my next personal training session with Andrew. It went well, we did more arm stuff....thank God! I still don't walk normal! UGH! My session was cut a little short cuz the previous one went too long. Oh Bummer. I have been pretty tired lately anyway. But next week he promised to make it up to me. We did assisted pull ups, lateral pull downs, lawnmower row, and dumbell curls. I loved the assissted pull ups! I needed some extra help but it make me feel super accomplished. The lawnmower row was good, I can still feel it in my sides. I was having some trouble feeling motivated so I think I need to make a list for those sucky days!

1. The worst part is actually getting there. Then it's not so bad.

2. How good the burn feels when the workout is done.

3. Possibility of finding a new workout that I enjoy..hey it's happened before!

4. Remember what the scale said when I weighed myself for the first time in weeks? NOT GOOD!

5. I want nice arms.

6. How good it will be do see some douche bags from my past at Abby's wedding!

7. It will be waaaaay less embarrassing to do laser hair removal to bikini line after a few rolls are gone.

8. Andrew is super supportive and encouraging...and I won't complain about looking at him either.

9. Looking forward to walking in heels without my feet killing from the extra weight.

10. I can only imagine the s*x will get better!

11. I can brag on facebook!

12. The compliments I will recieve in the future.
13. My vain desire for an arm tattoo (sugarland style) about being stronger than you know.

I am sure I will think of more, and I will add them as I go.

As I mentioned in #4, I sepped in the scale, I wasn't prepared for what I saw! I know the past couple weekends have been full of beer and food...but I still wasn't prepared!

That is the motivation I needed, but still really depressing.

Something to make me happy though is this picture from this weekend:)

Ok...so motivation train back on track!

Say what?!

Ok so here's the deal...I got out of blogging and then I never had anything to say. I don't know if anyone will read this..but I don't care. I need to share my new journey to keep up motivation. But I am getting ahead of my self. So here is the lowdown in the last year and a half..I quit my job, cut off all contact with Adam, moved to Minnesota, got a job at a children's hospital, and bought a house! Wowza!

Now here is the other thing I joined anytime fitness and got a personal trainer! Holy freaking God! What was I thinking?! After one day with him I am regretting it! We chose to do legs the first day. BIG MISTAKE! We did ball against the wall and did squats, lunges, something something dead lift something, and the ab machine. I like the dead lift and the ab machine. After the ball exercise my legs felt like falling off. By the time I got home my legs were jello and I could barely walk. Going up the stairs was hard enough but coming down..umm I actually fell! I cannot explain how bad my theighs actually hurt! Two days later they burn constantly..and don't get me started on how they feel after sleep..even worse...all stiff and sore! Yikes!

Today was arm day and went soooo much better! I actually enjoyed the exercises. We did abs as well. Andrew ( my trainer) says that to focus on one area per gym day but always do abs because the core is so important. Thats ok with me...the ab exercises feel pretty good and don't leave me immobile! ha

Ok, well stay tuned and find out how the next 18 months of this personal trainer goes! This should be an interesting ride..if nothing else amusing! Ha!